Im slack-a-lacking

Sorry for the lapse in posts amigos.  Gavin is gonna work on getting the wifi working at the house to make it easier for me to post. I have all these amazing pictures and videos of Eleanor, but they're all on my laptop. Ugh. On a better note ...

Our baby girl is 6-months-old!!! 

It's so crazy to think that it's been half a year since she came into our world. I now completely understand why adults always seem so amazed by how fast kids grow. I look at Eleanor and Im just in awe at how she has grown and developed and learned about herself and the world around her. My baby is so big now! 

I consider it a huge blessing that she has such a curious personality. She loves to see and touch and eat (haha!) EVERYTHING. Gavin and I joke about needed to get her carpet samples because she loves running her hands over carpet. We bought her a little safety glass mirror so she can see herself and she is always curious about the baby that stares back. She always seems just content to watch everything happening the world; to observe and explore with all her senses. It's a beautiful thing. 

Ill try to post a bunch of 6-month milestone pictures and posts through out the month. Her doctor appointment is on the 14th (I think) so that'll get a post too of course. Ill also start posting all the awesome videos I have of her. 

Autumn has arrived.

Like so many other people, Fall is my favorite time of year. I start getting out all my sweaters, order my Starbucks hot, and don't get odd looks when I wear a scarf. The leaves change, the air gets crisp, and the pumpkins grow. Yep, autumn is my favorite. 

Our little pumpkin is growing too. She's getting longer by the day and she's super active. She doesn't crawl yet, just scoots and rolls, but she's ever so close to crawling. She can get herself up on all fours and she can move her legs as though she wants to crawl, but she hasn't quite gotten the arm movements down yet. Instead she gets in the right position and rocks back n' forth. 

Her curiosity is growing each day too. She is very interested in Lucky and his fur. I figure the different textures is what she likes. Lucky is pretty amazing with her too. He is very good with her -better than we ever thought he'd be. He lets her "pet" him, pull his ears, and stuck fingers in his mouth and nose. It's cute to see. 

Just two more weeks before she's six-months-old. Where has the time gone? From spring to summer and now fall. 

Five Months Already ... Crazy.

Eleanor Anetta Smith is 5-months-old. 5 months in this world and she's already learned so much. 

She knows if she cries one way she'll be held and if she cries another way she'll get milk. She knows her hands can help push her over or grab her favorite toy or help get her toes into her mouth. She knows her name is Eleanor. She knows her mama and her daddy and shes starting to know some of her grandparents. 

She is amazing, our little love bug, and watching her curiosity grow and her discovery of the world makes us so incredibly happy. Before we know it she'll be all grown up and watching her own children ... now there's a thought that makes a mommy emotional.

Chew toys (What?? That's what they are.)

Today's post features my child with various things in her mouth. Teething is definitely not very enjoyable and it can be hard to find the right chew toy for her little gums. Not to mention, the amount of drool all over my house is crazy!

(The last one is my favorite. Haha!)

Fantastic Four (Months)!

Miss Eleanor Anetta Smith is officially 4 months old! It blows my mind some days how much she has grown and developed in such a short amount of time. I catch myself getting teary-eyed sometimes when I realize my little baby is getting bigger. Weird too, since I have never been a baby person -though we all know I do get pretty sentimental. 

Work is work is work. I miss my little love bug like crazy while Im gone and the second that clock hits 4 pm you'll find me racing to the door. She does really well at daycare though. Everyone loves her -of course- and I like that she can experience new people and interact with other kids. Plus, it's still just 3 days each week. 

Gavin and Eleanor have their Daddy/Daughter days Tuesdays and Wednesdays and Im sure those are their favorite days of the week. It's cute to watch Gavin play and sing and act silly just for a smile from Eleanor. He's such an amazing Dad. 

Length: 24 3/4 inches (55%?)
Weight: 12lbs 7oz. (25%)
New skills: she can rolls from both tummy to back, and back to tummy! She scoots across the floor like a champ too.
Old skills improved: she can grab things first try and is a lot better at sitting up (supported by us or her bumbo).
Working on: sitting up on her own and "crawling" (she scoots).
Best part: when she giggles and laughs. Melts my heart to hear and see her so happy.
Worst part: she is teething so she drools like a St. Bernard and gets fussy when her gums hurt a lot. 

End note: Eleanor was baptized on July 20th in a beautiful ceremony at St. Philomena's Catholic Church in Des Moines. I've been meaning to post pictures, but Im having issues with my laptop and that is where the pictures are at this current time. Ill get them up soon though! 

Picture Post!

Since SOMEONE (*cough* Christina *cough*) is impatient for more pictures (even though I text them to her), here is a post full of pictures that haven't made it to Facebook. Enjoy!

Sweet Sixteen Weeks

 Our little love bug is 16-weeks-old today! It's hard to believe that we brought her home only 16 weeks ago. Long gone is the newborn who seemed too small for her car seat, who slept on her daddy's chest almost every night, and could easily be swaddled asleep. Our baby girl has grown in leaps and bounds the last few weeks.

Now Eleanor sleeps through the night, has favorite toys, is growing out of her clothes, and has discovered she has a voice (one she uses is a million different ways). We try to read to her every night and on weekend mornings, which she enjoys for the most part. She loves watching Veggie Tales Silly Songs or Food Network with her mama. Haha! She has discovered that her hands can grab and grasp things as well. Her favorite thing to play with is her Hunger Caterpillar which gives her a bunch of different fabrics, beads, and a rattle to explore.

My favorite developmental leap Eleanor has made is that she can rollover from her tummy to her back. This new skill was an elusive one for a few days. Eleanor would be in her cradle or on the bed on her tummy for some tummy time and Gavin and I would walk into another room for a second. When we'd come back and she'd be on her back! For days this happened -she'd roll over the exact moment we weren't looking. One night Gavin spent 15 minutes watching her attempt to roll over on the bed and she wasn't able to. We eventually witnesses the feat and now she rolls over when she is done with her tummy time.

12 weeks but not 3 months ...

My baby girl is already 12-weeks-old! So crazy to think about -it feels like we've had her forever, but then 12 weeks doesn't seem like a lot of time at all. Grandma Diana and Grandpa Brad came over Thursday and we debated if Grandma Diana was allowed to say she was 3-months-old or only 12-weeks-old. Technically Eleanor will be 3-months-old (13 weeks) NEXT Friday ... We've decided to celebrate this monumental event in her life with fireworks. :D 

Eleanor had been taking leaps and bounds in her development too. She talks a lot, cooing at anyone who will listen. Ill post a video of her talking soon. She had also gained almost full control of her head and neck, which has saved my chin a lot of bumps and bruises. 

And while she can't quite sit up on her own yet, she's getting really close to being able to. We are thinking of getting her a bouncy chair soon because one of her favorite things is to use our hands to "stand up" and bounce. She can also scoot across her play mats which is pretty exciting. She'll be crawling in just a few more months! 

One of my favorite things about her (that I may have mentioned before) is that she sleeps through the night! Our little bug created her own sleep schedule and has decided to be very generous and sleep about 7-8 hours a night starting between 10-12, which is basically the same schedule Gavin has. And while I still have to get up in the middle of my sleep to pump, it is wonderful to have some uninterrupted sleep otherwise. 

Little girl growing up already!

It's crazy to think that Eleanor is 11 weeks old; on the one hand it feels like we've had her forever, but then we realize it hasn't even been 3 months! And she is growing up so fast. Gone is my tiny newborn who used to sleep all day and felt so little in my arms. Now Eleanor spends her days awake and exploring her new world as much as she can. She has such a long body that it's actually easier to sit in the rocking chair to nurse her because she stretches herself across.

Here is a breakdown of our baby girl's stats (as of her 2 month check up):

Length: 23 3/4 inches (92%)
Weight: 10lbs 12oz. (55%)
Head Circumference: 15 1/2 inches (70%)
New skills: she reaches and grasps toys, blankets, shirts, etc.
Old skills improved: she can hold her head up like a champ and is working on the neck control.
Working on: sitting up on her own
Best part: her smile is the best smile and she almost giggles
Worst part: she hates the car suddenly; cries and screams almost an entire car ride sometimes

Being a working mom is rough

First: holy crap, being a working mom is hard. Physically, emotionally, and mentally.

Physically, being a mother is draining. Especially a breast feeding mother, because let's face it, you can try to sleep through the night but if your baby doesn't wake you up your boobs will. So being a breast feeding, working mother is even harder because long gone are the mid-day naps and sleeping past 5:30am. Instead of being able to take time to get ready in the mornings it's now a rush to make myself presentable, nurse Eleanor or pump, and try to fit in a little breakfast (Starbucks if Im lucky enough). I swear I get less sleep now than before. 

Emotionally, I was a wreck the first day Eleanor was in daycare. I felt so guilty (which you'll know if you read the previous post) an still do. I love coming home and cuddling with her or rocking her to sleep or playing on the tummy time mat. I used to take these things for granted. 

Mentally, Im on overload. It's almost like having pregnancy brain all over again. People talk to me and I zone out, or I forget what I was going to say or do, or it takes me forever to complete a simple task. It's a lot to keep in order: the mom mind, the work mind, the girlfriend mind, etc.

Returning to work was something everyone tried to prepared me for, but ultimately was something I had to experience for myself to fully understand how it would feel. It's all so overwhelming. Thankfully I've survived the first 3 weeks so far and so has Eleanor. 

Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

This last week was a rough one for mama. I went back to work and Eleanor started going to daycare.

For our family daycare is unfortunately a necessary evil right now. The smarter choice for us is for me to go back to work -at least through the end of the year. It helps with insurance coverage, my FSA, and keeps me a little more sane. But that doesn't make it feel any better knowing she is in a daycare a few hours every day ...

Eleanor and Gavin at dinner Tuesday.

Lets start with Monday. I didn't go to work until Tuesday, but I wanted to do a "test run" with Eleanor and her daycare -plus I wanted to get all the emotions of leaving my child with a "stranger" out of the way. I was super unprepared for the emotional onslaught. Gavin was just about to leave for work and I was getting ready when I suddenly just lost it. I couldn't stop sobbing about not wanting her to go to daycare and how I was gonna miss so much in her life and I was a bad mom for not staying home. Gavin was awesome (he usually is in these situations) and took Eleanor to daycare for me, even though it meant he was late for work. He took a bullet and was "the bad guy" who dropped her off at daycare and I got to be the one that rescued her.

Gavin and Eleanor "suited up" for the day.

Tuesday and Wednesday were much better. I went back to work and tried to get back into my old groove. It was easier to be away for so long knowing Eleanor was at home with her Daddy all day, especially since Gavin kinds rocks the whole Dad thing. I'll admit that it was kinds nice being KARIE again for a few hours and not just Eleanor's mom/meal/diaper changer.

Thursday and Friday were a bit harder knowing Eleanor was at daycare. No one takes care of my child like I do, so of course I'm going to worry and wonder. Are they comforting her when she cries? Do they know what her hunger signs are? do they know they have to feed her at an angle so her reflux isn't as bad? Is her diaper being changed when the line turns blue? They're only giving her the breast milk I sent right? They're not leaving her unattended are they? Are other people holding her? Are the other kids being nice and gentle? So many questions going through my head until I finally have her back. 4pm never seems to come fast enough anymore.

Tummy time with Mama!

Going back to work and being away from my baby has definitely given me a new appreciation for the time I have with her and makes the day-to-day routines we have feel a bit more special. I love getting on the floor with her for tummy time and having our little "babble chats" and just rocking her to sleep. Nursing her doesn't seem like such a chore anymore.

Maybe in the future I'll get to spend my days with her again, but for now I try to cherish those little moments I had started to take for granted.

But I don't wanna go to daycare ...

I start work next Tuesday and I feel completely conflicted about it already. It's a conundrum I'm sure many working moms have dealt with: I wanna go back to work, re-join the adult world, and have more mental stimulation than I've had the last eight weeks; but on the flip side I really don't want to leave my baby girl with some other person for hours at a time.

 Ugh.

Originally I was supposed to start work on Monday, but after thinking about the emotional turmoil I'm going to be in, I decided to start work on a day when I know Eleanor will be home with Gavin so I can focus on work instead of Eleanor being in daycare -the real emotional overload will come Thursday when she goes to daycare and I'm at work.

I know it isn't the worse thing that could happen, and she'll only be in daycare three days a week because Gavin is off two weekdays and I'm off weekends. Gavin and I have talked about me being a stay-at-home mom, but it just works for best for our family right now if I go back to work -mainly for insurance purposes. And I'm a woman who needs to be mentally challenged in some way -school or work- in order to stay sane. Staying home is a possibility in the future, so we'll see where we are in the coming months.

Wish me luck next week. And wish Gavin luck, as he's the one who will have to drop her off at daycare.

How are we supposed to leave this beautiful face everyday?

Daddy's Girl For Sure

It's seems a bit stereotypical, but Miss Eleanor is definitely a Daddy's girl (except for the hours of 11-3 when she likes to fuss for him. Haha!) Gavin and Eleanor are so cute together and it took about .04 seconds after she was born before she had him wrapped around her little finger. He dances with her, sings to her, and would hold her forever if possible. Their father-daughter bond makes for some super adorable photo ops and I hope you find it as cute as I do (though I'm a bit bias).

On a quick side note, Eleanor had a doctor appointment not too long ago. She  now weighs 9lbs 14.5 oz., which is exactly 3 lbs more than the day she was born. As for Eleanor's reflux, the doctor decided that since she is gaining weight and very healthy, she is not going to put her on medication for the problem. Otherwise, our baby girl is perfect. :)

Just a few hours after Eleanor was born.

Asleep in the hospital.

Sleep on the couch (for the millionth time).

Hanging with Dad at dinner.

Asleep just a few nights ago.

First Daddy feeding time.